This girl is going to be a chatterbox when she gets older...LOL

So I called my mom to talk to her about my idea for taking leave, and in the background I could hear Arianna just "talking" LOL. It was so cute, she was talking the entire time :) I can't wait to see her again and actually watch her "talk"

Jazzercise!

So today I went to a Jazzercise class and I have to say...even though I'll be extremely sore tomorrow(lol), I quite enjoyed it! I'm a little sad that it's only going on for one more week, but once Jazzercise is over it's on to ZUMBA!!! I'm pretty excited to try that too. Hopefully it will help me get rid of all this flab, especially since it might be hard for me to eat healthier- I like to snack way too much LOL.

MAKING CHANGES...

I've decided that starting tomorrow I'm going to work on getting back to my pre-baby weight (which was 165-170lbs). At my post-baby appt. I weighed 195. My goal is this: to get back to pre-baby size by June. One of the girls in my shop showed me something that she's doing that she got from a ShapeBridal magazine, and I'm going to give it a try. That and going to the gym at least three times a week, along with doing push ups/sit ups at home (to help get me ready for the PT test I have to do...Not looking forward to that :-/) and eating healthier should hopefully help me reach this goal. I've gotta get rid of this belly flab, I miss my somewhat hourglass figure LOL. Hopefully I'll be able to keep up with this, I want to be able to wear a swim suit again (and feel comfortable in it)!

I know I said before that I don't really follow horoscopes, but this is REALLY weird...

Simply because it's something I've been thinking about a lot lately. Sadly, there's no sweetheart, but it has been on my mind *sigh*

March 15, 2010
Taurus (4/20-5/20)

'If you can dream it, you can have it.' You may have seen or heard that phrase before, but it's not just a bunch of pretty words -- it's true. And what you've been dreaming about lately involves settling down and making a home with someone special. So if you're ready to stop thinking and get down to some actual work on the project, it's time to have a chat with your sweetheart. Your antennae are notoriously flawless, so you already know they're thinking along the same lines.

Changes are being made...

And I'm darn proud of it! :) I stood up for myself with someone that I still REALLY like. I'm not really concerned about how he felt about what I said, because I'm tired of these games that he thinks he can play with me. There are new additions to my life now, and I have to consider what's best for her and myself.

I figured out what I'm supposed to do next!

And that is MOVE ON SISTA! There's no way things will EVER change with him, so why even bother wasting my time, right? So, I made a list of long-term and short-term goals for me to do (mostly the short-term ones) which will (hopefully) help me to move on from this. Here's to actually moving on from my past!

The first step was admitting my feelings, the second step...?

If there's one thing I hate more than other people not answering my questions, it's when I can't answer my own questions. Or maybe I can answer the question, I just don't know what to do with my answer...*thinks* No...the second step is what am I going to do about it. The question here is...What AM I going to do about it? Confusing, isn't it?

I suppose it's time I was honest with myself...

I thought that after all of these months of not talking to him that I would be over him...I'm not. Even when we weren't talking I still thought about him. Part of me feels like I should just go with it and stop questioning everything, but another part of me can't help but question...Why am I still in love with him?

Working on my goals :)

So today I started my online class with the University of Phoenix, and I think I'm going to enjoy it quite a bit. It was overwhelming at first because of all of the posts my facilitator posted in the discussions, but after reading all of them I feel much better now, and I'm excited to continue getting my education :)

I don't really follow horoscopes but...

It's horoscopes like these that ring so close to some of the things that I feel that I just have to wonder...

March 01, 2010
Taurus (4/20-5/20)

The depth and breadth of your emotions for a certain someone will become quite evident over the next few weeks -- and most especially over the coming days. If you're really determined to be single, you can keep that up -- but it won't be easy. If you're looking for a long-term partner, why keep looking? You obviously have a candidate on hand, someone you're quite fond of, who feels just the same about you.

My biggest challenge

So once again it's back to me being by myself, only this time I'm not pregnant. My mom told me that I should get out there and try new things, live my life, figure out who I am and what I want out of life. It sounds like a great thing for me to try, but now that I'm back in my apartment and it's just me, I start feeling depressed that I'm alone again. I liked having my mom here, and it's weird with her and Arianna gone back to VA. I'd like to get out there and meet new people and all of that, but I'm just concerned that I might come off desperate with wanting to hang out with people and wanting...attention I guess. I'm not going to lie, it's hard for me to just be, normal I guess around people because I don't get out much, and I'm a quiet person around people I don't know. I dunno- I just have a feeling that I'm just going to go back to sitting on my computer or watching t.v. most of the day...But I WILL try to follow my mom's advice because how can I expect to possibly meet someone if I won't even leave my apartment and (wisely) put myself out there? This is going to be hard, but I have to be willing (and disciplined) to actually follow through with this.