No good very bad day turned really good day

"8But, behold, I say unto you, that you must study it out in your mind; then you must ask me if it be right, and if it is right I will cause that your bosom shall burn within you; therefore, you shall feel that it is right. 9But if it be not right you shall have no such feelings, but you shall have a stupor of thought that shall cause you to forget the thing which is wrong; therefore, you cannot write that which is sacred save it be given unto you from me."- D&C 9:8-9.

I can definitely say that I experienced these verses today, and at work of all places. Here's what happened: So I decided to stay in the same apartment complex that I'm in now, but just downgrade into a one bedroom one bathroom apartment that Arianna and I will be living in once I get back from this deployment. The one that I'm in now is nice, but there's no way I'll be able to afford it once I have her here, but I'm not complaining either. Anyway, I have a friend at work who was helping me decide by suggesting places, and when I told him what I planned to do he was just like "well why don't you just put everything in storage and wait until you're about to come home to get an apartment that way you're not paying for an apartment that you're not living in for 6 months." I considered it, and almost immediately I started getting stressed out because I was thinking that if I decided to put my stuff into storage, I wouldn't know when to put it all away since we don't have a definite date for leaving yet, and then on top of that I'd have to figure out somewhere to live before we left and after we got back, which just adds onto the stress of getting ready for/being deployed. So I'm trying to explain to him that I'd feel much more comfortable just getting an apartment before we leave and paying for it while we're gone so I know that I'll have a place to come home to instead of stressing over finding a new place to live. Plus, I would be able to get stuff set up for Arianna as well for when she comes back with me. To which he suggested that putting everything storage will help me save up more money for when Arianna comes to stay with me and that storage is a better idea than moving. It got so frustrating that I asked other people at work for their advice about it. The whole thing was really putting a damper on my day. Not to mention a storm was rolling in and I had to switch toolboxes because the wheels on the first box I had decided to be really dumb and not work the way that they were supposed to...So I had to deal with that and it took FOREVER *sigh* So I'm stressed about this moving issue, I'm not very happy with finance and this travel voucher, and then my box decides to act stupid. It was not a good day. By the way, I saw the unit that I would be moving in to, and it looks just like the one I'm in now minus the extra bathroom and bedroom. I'm pretty excited about it. So anyway, I got this thought in my head that I've made my decision and I like the decision I made, I shouldn't let someone else's suggestion overrule what I already know works for me. I started thinking "You know, I'm comfortable with my decision. I may make mountains out of molehills sometimes, but in this case, I'd rather not stress out while I'm already deployed." I know myself enough to know that I like to be prepared for things, and having a place to live already set up for when I get back before I leave for this deployment is one way that I can prepare. After thinking about it and reminding myself that what works for me may not work for others, I instantly felt calmer, and all the crazy stressful thoughts just vanished. The only thing that was left was a sense of peace about the decision that I made. This verse came to mind, only since I couldn't remember where in D&C that it was, I had to wait til I came home to look it up and then blog about it.

So that's pretty much been my day right there in a nutshell...Now seeing as it's really late/really early in the morning, I'm going to go to bed now. Full day of stuff that needs to be done tomorrow- after an activity with the single's ward, of course :) Hopefully last night's storm hasn't changed any of the plans for it :)

I don't know if I'm frustrated, irritated, or both

So....Called finance today because I STILL haven't gotten paid for the Vegas TDY...And the guy that I talked to today said that it's STILL sitting at Ellsworth, and they won't know when it will go through until the people at Ellsworth do something. And that it takes 2-3 weeks from when Finance approves it for the voucher to get paid back. Which is NOT what I was told a few days ago, and NOT what I was told last week. I was told 1) that it takes a week for it to get paid back (that was last week); and 2) that if I didn't get paid by today to give them a call because I should've gotten paid by today ( that was a few days ago). On top of that, there is talk that Finance messed up some people's travel vouchers, so they didn't get paid the full amount that they were supposed to. I really don't know how they screen people into these Finance jobs, but I think the Air Force needs to do a better job of it because this is getting ridiculous. I made a note of this in a recent Facebook status, but if all of us on the flightline decided to mess up on our jobs or just not even do them, there would be no U.S. Air Force. It would just be U.S. Air (especially if my job decided not to load the weapons that provide said force). I'm sure if the nonners (non-flightline personnel, those who wear Blues on Mondays), went on TDYs and had to wait FOREVER for their travel vouchers to go through, they would understand the frustration of those who DO go on TDYs. I mean, some people need that money for things like grocery shopping, paying bills, making sure their children are taken care of...You know, IMPORTANT THINGS. So now I'm waiting until Wednesday to see if my money shows up. If not, Finance will be dealing with a very unhappy maintainer.

On a happier note, I just heard from the manager of the apartment complex that I'm staying in. I can change apartments and move into a smaller one bedroom one bathroom apartment. I even got to go look at it, and it pretty much looks the same as the two bedroom two bathroom apartment I'm in now, minus the extra bedroom and bathroom. I'm pretty excited, and I hope I can move in in the next few weeks. That's my plan anyway. Gotta figure out this work schedule for this exercise, because it has me SO confused right now.

Boyz II Men and Brandy

So, I'm fairly certain that this song was meant for me. I looked up the words for it, and it's definitely some advice that I need to take! Here's the video:




It also kinda reminds me of a song sung by Brandy, which sort of has the same meaning. It's called Right Here (Departed). Here's the video for that:



I just love the messages of both of these songs...I will have to find Boyz II Men albums on Itunes or something...And KCi and Jo-Jo because I like them too. Basically R&B artists from when I was a kid :) Oh how I miss the 90s...

It's funny how things click at the strangest times

Take today for instance. I was on the line working with some people putting up a pylon and the thought came to me that I need to do things order. I took it to mean, first I needed Arianna back with me, and then things would fall into place. That's just the feeling that I got. Also, I'm looking into moving into a smaller, less expensive apartment...We'll see how that goes.

I'm not gonna lie...

I kinda miss being an MG, even though Sam and I haven't been together since I left for Korea almost three years ago. Still, I was waiting for him as his best friend, and I definitely had those emotions and feelings that a lot of the MGs I know go through, and I kinda miss it. I feel like I can't really relate to them anymore because I'm not waiting for a missionary anymore. I LOVE reading other girls' success stories about when their missionaries come home, but at the same time I hurt and feel sad because I won't have a success story to gush about to other girls, I can't complain about how the mailman is the most undependable person in the world when it comes to letters and packages both to and from our missionaries (Sam never got the one that I sent him for the 4th of July- I am NOT happy about that), and as weird as it sounds, I won't have the crazy ridiculous mood swings that occur three seconds apart. It's funny how before Sam went on his mission I never really knew about MGs, but now that I was a part of them, it was like being in a whole new, awesome world where everyone had the same goal, even if they were at different stages of reaching that goal. MGs are like a sisterhood where we can all just come together and talk about whatever is going on in our lives and not have to worry about people bringing us down for our decisions. *sigh* I dunno I just miss being in a relationship where I'm actually wanted by a guy for more than just sex... I'm trying hard to not worry about it so much, but it's hard sometimes when you're at the single's ward and there are couples scattered around the chapel. It's like I'm being mocked without really being mocked because I'm sitting by myself. Doesn't help when the guys I have an interest in already have girlfriends...*sigh* Just one more thing I need to work on I guess...

Contemplating....

So there are a lot of the MG's who have been together with their missionaries for as long as Sam and I have been together (which was almost 3 years), the only difference is that they're all still together and Sam and I...well...aren't. I dunno. Like, I look at other couples, and going to the family ward on Sundays looking at all the families and married couples...I can't help but wonder- Was being with Sam the only serious relationship I'm going to have? I don't know what I'm doing wrong... I go to the Single's Ward and try to put myself out there, but it doesn't seem to be working! Dating guys in my shop are out of the question because most of them are married or already have a girlfriend, and none of them are single LDS guys. Let alone guys that I want to date, simply because what comes out of their mouth *sigh* Add the fact that I'm a single mom and whammo- not a chance any member will want to date me. I can't really blame anyone but myself for that one though...Still I'm going to complain. Not about the fact that I'm a single mom, but the fact that I'm SINGLE. I don't like being single. I think I'm done now. Perhaps I should go work on my paper...

Prayers, cooking, and paper writing

Today has been a good day! I figured out what to do with my hair (finally), had a prayer answered, AND, I finished the outline to my paper that I will attempt to write later on! And I cooked dinner! Well it was just spaghetti, but still. I cooked it haha.

For my hair, I decided to try putting in micro braids. I googled tutorials on putting them in, and I'm REALLY excited about it. I know that it will take awhile though to get used to braiding with extensions and with braids so small, but I figure if my travel voucher goes through either tomorrow or Tuesday, I can buy the hair and get started before the weekend! That way I won't have so much to do during the weekend! :D Hopefully it turns out okay!!! :D

As for my apartment, I'm going to see about just keeping the apartment. I mean, thinking about it, I have a two bedroom two bathroom apartment. Why move out it if I'm possibly bringing Arianna back to Utah with me? That way she can have her own bedroom, and if anyone ever comes over to visit, they'll have their own bathroom to use :) I fasted about what I should do about moving into a new apartment in the same complex, or moving near a friend of mine in Clearfield, and I had the HARDEST time making a decision. But now I have this answer, and tomorrow when I talk to the management people here I'm hoping that keeping the lease for this apartment will be an option :)

And....I FINALLY FINISHED THE OUTLINE FOR MY PAPER THAT'S DUE TOMORROW!!! Now all I have to do is write it, which hopefully won't be too hard for me to pull off *sigh* We'll see how this goes. So today has been a good day, and I'm certainly not going to complain about it. Yay for good days! :D :D :D