Here's a Thought

You know the feeling you get when you're with a group of people but you still feel alone? I kind of felt that way tonight while watching fireworks (which were awesome, by the way). I don't know why I feel this way, it always happens when I'm in a crowd or with people that I know. I just feel...closed off. Not that it's their fault, I know it's mine. Like, I would really like to open up to people and actually have friends here that I can talk to about whatever is bothering me, or just have a random conversation about anything but something keeps me from doing that, and I don't know what it could possibly be. It's slightly irritating when you've become your own roadblock...