Something New... In more ways than one

Last night the movie "Something New" was on Oxygen. If you haven't seen it, I recommend it! It's basically about an interracial relationship (I LOVE interracial relationships- for those who've known me for quite awhile, know that I've been in one myself- and we're still close friends!)... If I keep talking about it I will end up telling you the whole movie and I won't do that so...moving on! An yway, there was a quote in the movie that inspired me to change the name of my blog to "Let go, let flow." In the movie, one of the Sanaa Lathan's characters talks about this book she was reading or something like that (my memory's fuzzy, I watched this last night, remember?), and she said that the author brought up the point that if we just let go of our lists of what we want in a man, then everything else would just flow and we can figure out what we want and don't want as time goes on and we (hopefully) date. Anyway, that really stuck with me, because that's something that I need to do. I need to just "let go, let flow...". We'll see how well that works over time (haha).

SO! Last week I came up with this idea to help me stay motivated and actually get things done (hopefully). I have a mirror that I just bought last week (and it was a pain in my butt to hang this sucker up- right now it's hanging lopsided on my wall and I have no inclination to fix it), and I came up with this idea to do a "Goal of the Week" thing, to see if that would help me at least accomplish something that week instead of feeling like I'm getting nothing done and that I'm not progressing at all. Last week's goal was to be more patient. I'd say that went fairly well, seeing as there are certain people (or recently, a certain someone) who REALLY try my patience... This week's goal was a little harder. I think I should've worked my way up to this one, because I have such a hard time with it. This week's goal is to manage my free time better. Mainly because I spend it all watching TV, or sitting on Facebook, or blog stalking... Not like there's anything wrong with that, but when I have more important things to do like homework, or studying for Staff, or cleaning my apartment, or reading my scriptures... These all end up being put on the back burner for things like TV and the Internet, and before I know it, the day is gone, my eyes are tired and I've gotten nothing productive done. So, this week I was to try and manage my free time better. I think I failed this week : / I'm deciding what to do for next week's goal; I have a few in mind, but I don't know which one to pick. It might be a more spiritual one, because I REALLY need to get back on track with that... *sigh* But when I finally decide on what next week's goal is, I will be sure to let you all know (what few of you that actually read this thing... I swear I feel like I'm talking to myself sometimes! But I suppose that's okay...It's better than talking to myself in public, right?)!

ONE FINAL THING- Next Saturday (April 30th, for those who don't know) is my 23rd birthday, and I'm thinking about getting a tattoo. This weekend I'll probably check out some places that people have told me about, and then make a decision. I've wanted one for years, but could never decide what I wanted or where I wanted it to go. Besides, tattoos are permanent- they should have meaning, right? Right! And this one will, only I won't put it on here. If I do get it, I'll be sure to take a picture though!

And I suppose that's it! Maybe one of my goals should be to blog more regularly... I don't seem to do this enough. I always tell myself "Hey, you should update your blog today" but then I get sidetracked by something on TV haha. That should be another goal...Cut back on the amount of TV that I watch...

I guess it was going to happen eventually...

Today... I had my first car accident. It was actually my fault...Quite the shocking experience. It wasn't major or anything, I just wasn't able to stop in time and ended up rear-ending the car in front of me. The damage done to the front of my car (although not serious enough to really worry about fixing it)...it's a sad thing to look at. I just feel SO bad... I hit a SMSgt's car : / Yikes. I'm not too sure how I feel about driving now...At least I'll be WAY more careful now (not like I wasn't before haha). But anyway, I don't really have anything else interesting to blog about aside from that, so I suppose that's it! Oh, I tried to post pictures, but they're in compressed files and won't load for some reason... I guess that's okay, since every time I see my car I feel horrible for damaging it like that. I'm so sorry car!!!

*insert witty saying here*

So, my body decided on it's own that it would wake up at 530am for no apparent reason whatsoever and won't let me go back to sleep. I've tried just lying there, hoping that my eyes would gradually close and I would drift off to sleep again, but nope. I guess I'm not that lucky. So...The only thing left to do (aside from finish some homework that's due later tonight), is to blog! I actually had a really nice blog post done last week that I was REALLY proud of (mainly because I did it all on my phone), but then I couldn't post it :/ So that kinda sucked. But anyway, I'll just make this post with little bullets or squiggly lines or something haha.

~ Tea tree oil is the bomb for when your scalp itches. The tingly feeling is pretty refreshing, it reminds me of a tingly mint feeling (even though it smells NOTHING like mint)

~ Is it weird that I want to name my hair, but I don't have a name for my car?

~ Can't believe that in... 23(?) days I will be 23 years old.

~ I also can't believe that in 22 days I will have been in the Air Force for 3 years. Three years down, three more to go!

~ There's nothing like finding the right deodorant to keep you from sweating like you ran a marathon when all you did was walk to your car in somewhat nice weather. Thanks, Suave :)

~ There's something about being held by a guy with strong arms that makes me feel extra protected. That's not to say that guys that don't have strong arms are wimpy and unable to protect people, but for me there's just something extra comforting about it. Call me weird, say what you want but it's the truth.

~ I find it interesting that one of the first thing I notice about a guy is their eye color...Yet looking someone in the eye while I'm talking to them makes me REALLY nervous.

~ This Utah weather is REALLY driving me NUTS. When will it actually be springtime here???

~ This kinda ties in with an earlier squiggly, but I also like holding hands with someone who has strong hands. Not sure what that means entirely, but when I hold someone's hand, I can tell by the way mine fits in theirs. My hands aren't wimpy by any means ( I think), but I'd say they're pretty decent haha.

~ I actually enjoy reading my Bible now. There's a lot that I've learned from my reading through the Old Testament, and there's a whole lot that God has shown me during my daily readings in the morning ( I use two different Bibles, but the same translation). I don't think anything compares to coming across a verse (or verses) that especially speak to you or about something that's going on in your life, or something you've been wondering about.

And... I think on that note, that's it! I'm going to try and get some sleep now. Hopefully I can!

Shea Moisture is at Walgreens!!!! : D

I remember awhile ago there being mention of Shea Moisture products being sold at Walgreens starting in March. I forgot about it until yesterday, when I was looking through a forum that I follow and came across a thread about a Shea Moisture buy one get one free sale at Walgreens tonight! How stoked was I?!?! SO stoked!!! I was at work when I found out, and was SO thankful that 1) the Walgreens down the street was participating in this sale, and 2) it's open 24 hours! I work from 3-11pm, so that worked out perfectly! Anyway, I walked in the store, and got nervous but I couldn't find it. And then I did! I got SO excited!!! This is what I got (along with another curl enhancing smoothie, since I'm FINALLY starting to run out haha):

I used the shampoo and conditioner tonight (and also used the conditioner as a leave in), and then sealed with my oils mix and my hair feels AWESOME! So light and clean (albeit still slightly itchy...gotta find a way to solve that problem). The shampoo felt like I was washing with conditioner! DARN IT! *smacks forhead* I totally forgot to put in my ACV rinse... I firmly believe that's why my scalp has been so itchy... *sigh* I keep forgetting and I don't know why! grr...So! That is my hair update ( I guess) for now! I'm STILL considering getting braids put in (I'm such an indecisive person), but now I'm stuck between Kinky Twists, and Nubian Twists. *sigh* Also (sorry, this just came to mind)! Kimmaytube's leave-in conditioner- LOVE IT!! First off, it smells like baby oil- and that's an awesome smell. Second, it moisturized my hair SO WELL. It gave my curls bounce (BOUNCE! And my curls aren't even that long! Especially since I got it trimmed/cut!), it's SUPER light, and it blended into my hair like it was nothing. I made a second batch when I ran out of the first, only this time I wanted to try it in my spritz bottle... Yeah, I think I'm going to use it as it was meant to be used, and then whenever I get braids I'll probably use the spritz bottle version (and use the actual measurements- or maybe a little less haha). Anyway, on a scale of 1-10 (1 being the worse and 10 being the best)... This leave-in conditioner is 10 times 10 to the infinity power (which basically means, IT IS OFF THE CHAIN!!!)!!! This is definitely going to be my staple leave-in condish. Definitely. Thanks bunches, Kimmaytube! : D

Now. Onto something slightly different...I'm not a big huge fan of her, but one of her songs kinda fits the way that I've been feeling for awhile- Taylor Swift's "Teardrops on My Guitar." Now, I don't play the guitar, and I'm definitely not in high school anymore, but the meaning behind the song basically reflects how I've been feeling emotionally lately. This, and realizing some other things have made me feel somewhat better, but not by much. It doesn't really ease the heartache. I'm having a hard time finding something to distract myself with. I mean, yes, I've been trying to turn to God by praying and reading the Bible, but it's not helping. How do I get over feeling this way? Does anyone have any suggestions??? I'll GLADLY take some : )

I'm so excited!

Okay. First off, my bantu knot-out came out WONDERFULLY! For those who were wondering I did the knots with Shea Moisture's Curl Enhancing smoothie, and then spritzed my oil mix over the knots when I was done. This was the result!

I was SO happy with the way they came out, my hair looked so much thicker because all the small coils were combined into larger coils. I think I will DEFINITELY come back and do these more often!

Now, on to something I'm just as excited about! I've found that my leave-in spritz that I've been using keeps my hair moisturized for maybe an hour or two, and then after that it's dry and crunchy (mostly when I'm at work). The oils that I use to seal my hair (supposedly) are still there, but it's still dry and crunchy : / So... off to Youtube I went! I checked out one of the natural hair channels I subscribed to, and came across this LOVELY gem: Kimmay Tube's leave-in mix! I read a lot of the comments, and it seemed to do SO much as far as retain moisture and keeping the hair soft, that I just HAD to give it a try! So off to the Super Wal-Mart I went! These were the products that I used:

(in the video she uses aloe vera juice, but I did some more research on it and aloe vera gel works too!)

I followed the instructions ( using 4 teaspoons of my herbal oil, because it had both the castor and jojoba oil...I figured it just made sense), and came this is the end result!

I'm looking forward to using this tomorrow after I cowash my hair. I especially like that when it's mixed well with aloe vera gel, the mix turns really creamy : )

I also found a few bandannas (one of which I'm wearing in the above picture), for $1!! I'm just excited to do some spring clothing shopping (spending wisely of course!) and embracing all of this new natural hair goodness!!! 

HAIR UPDATE!!!!

I'm SO happy to finally have some time to actually try something new with my hair. We've been pulling 12 hour shifts at work for the past two-three months, and TODAY (yesterday) THAT FINALLY ENDED!!!! I was at work for maybe...2 hours today! AWESOME! So- Friday night I was looking through some natural hair blogs, and one of the blogs that I'm following had a post on a bantu knot out that she did. It came out REALLY good, and her hair is short like mine! Well, mine is a little shorter than hers. Anyway, that inspired me to look up on Youtube videos of bantu knots on short hair. From what I saw it's fairly easy to do. Since I didn't have time to deep condition my hair on Saturday (when I usually deep condition my hair), I was going to do it tonight (well, Sunday night, since it's monday morning) since there was a rumor of being back on 8 hour shifts this week (which is in fact, a fact). Anyway, so. Got done with work WAY early, deep conditioned my hair, and put my hair into bantu knots. I'm hoping they come out somewhat decent, seeing as my twist-outs didn't work out very well...

 Hopefully these turn out okay!!!

Another thing I'm looking forward to trying is the ayurvedic hair care regimen. It uses different Indian Herbs that are good for your hair, and I'm excited to try it because it seems to be working for others who have tried it. My hair is kind of at a growth stunt right now (I really need to trim it though- that COULD be the problem... *innocent shrug*), and some of the herbs that are used in this regimen promot hair growth! I should also really consider taking multivitamins again... I jused to take One A Day Women's, and I can't remember why I stopped taking that... hm.

ALSO. I'm on the fence about getting braids put in. I would like to be able to do something new with my hair and actually be able to stayle it, but I don't know how it will hold up in the coming spring/summer months. Maybe I should hold off on the ayurvedic hair care until I've gotten tired of braids... Maybe kinky twists?

Oh the joys of trying new things with my hair... 



Every woman has a breaking point, y'all

I don't know why, but that song by Keri Hilson is currently playing in my head. I mean, obviously there's a reason behind it, but I'm not entirely sure what that reason is. Make sense at all? I hope so. Things have been...different lately. I'm not sure how to deal with it. No, that's not it. I know I just have to stop caring about it and just move on. I try not to let it bother me when I come across something new; it doesn't sting so much anymore, but what bothers me is that I've become numb to it I guess. Like, I see it and I think "oh, well... I guess that explains the gap in responses..." I mean, I really should understand (and I do), I guess... Sharing has never really been something I was good at. Especially now. But that's just something I need to work on... Actually letting go and moving on... Somehow... *sigh*