Yet again, another testimony of D&C 9:8-9

So after reading the texts from my mom, and really thinking about what she was saying, and looking at my situation, I realize that the thought of adoption only really comes to mind when I feel guilty about not being able to take care of her myself. I feel like I'm placing my mom responsibilities to my parents because I'm not ready to take care of her on my own yet. But I feel like I should be ready. I thought I would be ready when I got back from the deployment that we're about to go on, but I don't think that I will be. I think that breakdown was Heavenly Father's way of telling me that I'm not ready to raise her on my own just yet.