I'm not gonna lie...

I kinda miss being an MG, even though Sam and I haven't been together since I left for Korea almost three years ago. Still, I was waiting for him as his best friend, and I definitely had those emotions and feelings that a lot of the MGs I know go through, and I kinda miss it. I feel like I can't really relate to them anymore because I'm not waiting for a missionary anymore. I LOVE reading other girls' success stories about when their missionaries come home, but at the same time I hurt and feel sad because I won't have a success story to gush about to other girls, I can't complain about how the mailman is the most undependable person in the world when it comes to letters and packages both to and from our missionaries (Sam never got the one that I sent him for the 4th of July- I am NOT happy about that), and as weird as it sounds, I won't have the crazy ridiculous mood swings that occur three seconds apart. It's funny how before Sam went on his mission I never really knew about MGs, but now that I was a part of them, it was like being in a whole new, awesome world where everyone had the same goal, even if they were at different stages of reaching that goal. MGs are like a sisterhood where we can all just come together and talk about whatever is going on in our lives and not have to worry about people bringing us down for our decisions. *sigh* I dunno I just miss being in a relationship where I'm actually wanted by a guy for more than just sex... I'm trying hard to not worry about it so much, but it's hard sometimes when you're at the single's ward and there are couples scattered around the chapel. It's like I'm being mocked without really being mocked because I'm sitting by myself. Doesn't help when the guys I have an interest in already have girlfriends...*sigh* Just one more thing I need to work on I guess...